A fleeing dream on the vestiges of sleep will infect and compose an entire day. The odd tints and angles, mismatched persons and actions, these things may color our gaze and break old trains of thought. And now this is connected to that, sometimes for the day, and sometimes never the same. Once fallow thought is now rich and green, and another, weighty and always pregnant with meaning, concedes its loving breath and lies still.
And who is it that wields this strange power? And why? Is it that sleep provides a secure venue for the secret, subdued things skittering (or sleeping) about during waking hours? How do they move on their own? When they are brought to light, during the day (should one be so brave), how is it that they cannot be expelled (that is, should one desire their expulsion)?
So, I think your musings on events in life have much in common with the aphoristic writings of philosophers like the later Wittgenstein's "Philosophical Investigations," or his "Culture and Value," or Nietzsche's "Gay Science," and just about everything else he wrote--they have a unique access to things, events, in our world--a kind of sixth sense. In his Philosophical Investigations, Wittgenstein says, "I contemplate a face, and then suddenly notice its likeness to another. I see that it has not changed; and yet I see it differently. I call this experience “noticing an aspect.” I think you notice aspects of this world that many, if not must, don't see. This is not an elitism, but a gift--a gift cultivated in a space like this!
ReplyDeleteApropos of our ongoing conversation, one possible avenue to expanding this sense is education. If not musical performance, I think a degree in the humanities, i.e., English, or Philosophy, would not only be of interest to you, but might provide a sense of self-clarity, or perhaps avenues for selling your thoughts and missives for food, clothing, shelter.
PS. In case you missed it, or for those whom did not catch it, relating what you wrote to the aforementioned philosopher's was my way of saying I'm really inspired by your work--I enjoy it. I enjoy its thoughtful affects and effects.
ReplyDeletePPS. Oh, and I did not proofread what I wrote, i.e., this, "Apropos of our ongoing conversation, one possible avenue to expanding this sense is education," is not a sentence.
ReplyDeleteha! wonderful. i agree. i enjoy it as well. so glad to see the craft being honed. it's hard from the inside to see that most people do not see the world as you do. and even if they do, most don't possess the natural ability to put words to their world. keep it up.
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